.a light in the land of deep darkness.

it has been quiet here.
thanks to becky for noticing.
been rough going on many fronts.
who knows, maybe one day i will blog about it.
???
anyway, in the midst of the rough going & quiet on here - a sweet, sweet friend made me this based on this:

and delivered it to my door.
score.
& she sent me this via email:

& when we went down with the stomach flu here - she was all over making sure we got hooked up with ginger ale & pedialyte.
like i said - she is a sweet, sweet friend.
thank you, darling erin.

she knows things about me that not any do & yet - loves me anyway.
and this is why i mention her.
but not just because she is a talented artist & sends me youtube links.
and not just because i'm pretty sure her voice is like what we'll hear in heaven.
although all that rocks.
because she is a light in the dark.
she reminds me i am not as forgotten as it may seem.
and not just not forgotten by people. (double negative, but you know what i'm saying)
but she also in a non-harrassing, real, very gentle, loving way reminds me God has not forgotten me.
she wishes i were not a hot mess, obviously.
BUT she doesn't mind my hot-mess-ness.
make sense?
this gal is the real deal.
she has walked thru some [stuff].
and she has represented Jesus' compassion in this ppd stuff in a way very few have.
and oh what a light it has been.

see, i started looking for lights.
Isaiah 9:2 says
The people who walked in darkness
    have seen a great light;
those who lived in a land of deep darkness—
    on them light has shined.
the more this verse comes to mind - the more i look for light.
like a God, you are saying light has shined on me, but where?
where is the light?
sometimes all i see is darkness.
i am living in the land of deep darkness.
where is the light???

here.
on a canvas.
in an email with a youtube music video.
in texts.
not exactly burning bushes, but lights all the same.