many know i have super struggled with my faith since ppd entered my life.
for a variety of oh so many lovely reasons.
a huge one being, i would say God left me at a certain point and that caused many issues because well - He promises not to.
and that, for my personal theology, upends all i believe in.
and it has been hard.
all my inner struggles had been exacerbated by external things.
that's kinda how it always goes though, right?it is not some magical answer yet in reading the following - hope in this area was built.
And the LORD said unto Satan, Behold, he is in thine hand; but save his life. Job 2:6
Job 2:6. The Lord said, Behold, he is in thy hand — I give thee permission to try him even in this way: do thy worst at him; afflict him to the uttermost of thy power. But save his life — Do not attempt to take that away which I will not suffer thee to do. God had mercy in store for Job, after this trial, and therefore he must survive it; and how much soever he may be afflicted, his life must be given him for a prey. If God did not chain up the roaring lion, how soon would he devour us! As far as he permits the wrath of Satan and wicked men to proceed against his people, he will make it turn to his own praise and theirs, and the remainder thereof he will restrain.
"If God did not chain up the roaring lion, how soon he would devour us."
THE MOST powerful, impacting, i CANNOT stop thinking about it statement for me.
that f'ing roaring lion would have devoured me in a hot second were it allowed.
depression all but killed me.
(be sober minded; be watchful. your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. 1 peter 5:8)
thinking of it in terms of it being chained up, only allowed to go so far?
that makes perfect sense to me.
doesn't give the why, BUT i can trace back to very specific, hopeless moments when yes, I should have been devoured, but was NOT.
there was indeed a boundary line.
not exactly my idea of "pleasant places" for the boundary lines (psalm 16:6), but there all the same.
THE LION WAS CHAINED.
if he wasn't - i would have killed myself.
or i'd be in a place not that chills me to the bone.
questions & many "why?"'s remain, but, yes, i can testify the lion is indeed chained.
(PS - i do not know who benson is, so if he has come cray theology or whatever - not endorsing him.
just saying - this quote is where it is at.)